ab·nor·mal/abˈnôrməl/
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anomalous – unnatural – irregular – aberrant – unusual
I am left feeing abnormal today. Don’t we all sometimes? In an effort to be a better parent I am trying to explore emotions, to give them names beyond the basics and to learn more about how to peaceful parent through being emotionally intelligent. This means I have to think more about what I am feeling and why.
Today I am feeling abnormal. I have pain condition that can make me rather useless being unable to move much at all. Traveling so much this summer has me in a special kind of painful hell. I feel like I have to be careful with myself as much as possible else I will not be able to keep traveling at all and I must be able to get to my sister’s wedding.
Little sister meaning the best though asked why my husband could not drive the 24 hours straight to her house from our own like she could. He was not thrilled with the question. He used to be able to do it when he was young and stupid he joked. Now it is too hard, and too much of a risk for us. We have 4 children. Not to mention a trip like that might well end up with me in the hospital and unable to stand for weeks. So we will stop at a hotel. She thinks the $100 we will be paying for a room is excessive and that we just need beds for a night. Only she does not understand that $100 is actually really good for the hotel I found, the room is a suite to sleep all 6 of us rather than having to get 2 different rooms like most places make our large family. They have descent beds, good reviews, and both and indoor and outdoor pool to help my body relax after a hard day on the road and to help the children get some much needed energy out and help their bodies as well.
15 years ago I was like her and could make such trips. Now though I am older and must be wiser and I am just so broken. So tonight I am left feeling abnormal, maybe more so than I normally do even.
-sigh-
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