ASS – as in:
I feel like an ASS.
I came up with that one all on my own! Do you like it?
I have been in mind blowing pain for days now and in a sour mood more often than not. With my condition there is no hope, no cure, no getting better. Just dealing with the bad days and hoping science learns more but really there really is no hope. I just hurt so badly I can hardly move at times, can’t walk other times, can’t type at times and so on.
I have had so little patience and not thinking clearly and I said something stupid in front of a group of friends. While I said many things it was like tunnel vision, they focused on the stupid thing I said. Serves me right, it was stupid. However it was not said to be hurtful and it was not aimed and darn it, can I not get the benefit of the doubt? Don’t we all make an ass out of ourselves from time to time?
So this is me feeling pathetic, feeling like an ass. We were supposed to leave for vacation days ago but I could hardly move so we didn’t go. I am a hot mess. It is one thing to have no patience with mean or stupid people but another all together to say something stupid to friends. -bang head on wall- I am not perfect. I try to explain this over and over. Just to be clear. I am an ass. Today at least, I am an ass.